Turning Green

I have been struggling a lot lately with being jealous. I really have no idea how to get rid of it. I try to talk myself out of it, but it is still there. I know it is in my nature. Judy and I used to always be the most jealous people in the world. I am getting jealous of everything right now. I am jealous of Will's work and how I am literally stuck here at home with the little guy while he is always gone working. Even when he is here he is working. I am jealous of other people getting to just hang out any time they feel like it. I know it's not true, but it feels like every night everyone is out having fun and I am here cleaning and trying to figure out what a screaming 2 yr. old wants. It's really hard for me. A quote from a movie is haunting me. The quote is saying I hope that you love your life and if ever you don't you have the courage leave everything and start over. Now is it courage or stupidity. Let's say if I were just to leave and do more school like I want and have an actual career like I want is that courage? To abandon everything here. Or is that just selfish? He says wait a couple years and I can go back and do more school, but don't want to wait. I guess I just have to tell myself that I shouldn't be jealous because some people would be jealous of my life. Well, I might trade them some days. I just feel that I miss out on a lot of things.