Little while ago I was with some friends and someone mentioned that I was the type of person whose glass is brimming over. Meaning that I am a very positive person. This made me think... Am I a positive person really or is it just a face I show? I know for a fact that I am more positive/accepting of other people. I also know that I am very harsh towards myself. Little things bring on loathing or depression. I do know that I use humor so I make light of almost everything which I guess could be seen as being happy. The funny thing is that I despise those always happy people. I want to shake them. "Show some emotion. Wipe that smile off your face." But maybe I am jealous because if they truly are happy inside and out then man they suck. haha Maybe I am more positive than I see myself. Friends typically see me as positive. Those who live with me say most of the time just not about myself. I will say this is having hope is positive if wanting to see the best in people is positive then... YES!!! I am positive in that respect. But I see that more as being a hippie. I am truly a mixed up individual because I hope for the best in people, but I rarely trust them. I am insane seriously so what can one say. If I appear to be positive them I am glad of that I can only hope that someday it will sink in all the way.
What is making me crazy:
~Swaps for knitting groups
~Cutting and sewing sweater
~Cocktail parties
~Corsets
~Holiday Parties
~Swaps, Swaps, SWAPS!!! =(
Currently:
Avoiding what I should be doing by reading Hawthorne (yes I know I have no one to blame but myself another bad thing about me when the going gets tough I get going doing something other than what I should be doing arrgggg!!!)
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